Learning & Accepting

I have been experiencing some seriously emotional and mental junk going on. The powerlessness I have felt and the inability to overcome and to rise above has been so overwhelming and consuming. All the work I have learned to do on myself with my mind and my energy could do nothing without the power of prayer and faith. I am still struggling to rise above and to truly understand what is going on and why, but one thing is true, if I had no spiritual connection to my higher power (my Heavenly Father and savior Jesus Christ) I would feel no hope, I have worked so hard to be more nutritious and to be in tune to my thoughts and feelings and to be aware of how I treat myself and others, yet without the spiritual tools nothing would work. I know the importance of daily acts such as studying the word of god and praying, even more than that the person I am and all the good I can create around me, for these are key to anything working out and becoming worthy of the guidance I seek, sometimes though, I just want to give in and stop trying, I want results now and it’s hard to be patient, I just want to know if I’m really even making a difference, what’s my purpose? Who am I to think I can accomplish anything on my own? I absolutely cannot do anything on my own, I have this understanding that my savior has experienced all things and knows how to comfort, support, strengthen and succor me. I believe with all my heart that as long as I turn to him he will always be here for me. So why is it so hard sometimes to accept gods will for me, he knows best all that I need and all that is best for me and my family, if I truly believe and trust him then why am I hesitating even a little? Is it that I am afraid of what I will have to do? Am I concerned it means I’m not fully in control of my life and everything around me? Why is it so hard to be humble and submit to my loving father who’s only goal for me is to help me return to him and to have the greatest joy I can ever have? When the answer comes and it’s something I didn’t want or expect then what am I going to do about it? Will I just turn my back on everything I know and feel to be true or will I stand a little taller and humbly accept what my father has in store for me and find greater peace? 

Within me lies the power to choose for myself and to be divinely guided, in choosing to do so there is strength I could never get on my own, there is courage I could never have on my own and there is a sense of gratitude I may not ever see in any other way. I am walking into the darkness for just a moment and then as I move forward I will notice the way being lit before me and I know I will reach my end goal. He is the way, the truth and the light. His is the path I want to follow. I encourage anyone seeking greater peace and joy to seek Jesus Christ in the best of books and learn of him, listen to his words and walk in the meekness of his ways. For in him there is hope, in him there is solace, forgiveness and true peace. #becauseofhim #onewordhisword #thewaythetruthandthelight #peace #hardtobehumble #jesuschristmysavior