Awareness fuels Empowerment

I’m in love with being a mom, even in the grueling tired moments I feel so much satisfaction and perfect love for the children that God has entrusted to my care. When I hold on to every moment and acknowledge Gods hand in my life and that he will help me and support me in my efforts I am much more capable of getting through the sleepless nights, the fatigue through the day and the tantrums of a very active 4 year old. The harder I try to lead and teach my children the more blessings I am able to see. When I forget to do my spiritual routines daily I can definitely feel the negative effects, I know it’s so important for me to be guided by a higher power, that spirit is truly what calms my soul and allows me to be the kind of mother my children need. Which is how I decided to focus the birth of my fourth baby. Just Thirteen days ago I gave birth to my fourth child, during that day into the late hours of the night until midnight when he was born I worked so hard on keeping myself connected to God, my baby and my spirit. My intention was to stay spiritually connected, to have faith and let go of fear, to be full of gratitude and love and to stay focused. I listened to some of my favorite songs and through the consistent hours of contractions I stayed in the moment. I knew how hard natural child birth was as that is all I have experienced, however I have never been so mentally, emotionally or spiritually connected during labor and delivery. I remember feeling every single surge or contraction and acknowledging it and telling myself I could do it. The moments when everything was so intense and painful I worked really hard on catching myself as the negative thoughts came and I didn’t think I could do it any more. I chose in those moments to continue to believe that I could do it and to rely on my higher power knowing that he suffered more pain than anyone and that he could help me get through this pain. I fully surrendered, I gave it all to my Savior and allowed him to take it from me, this didn’t mean I had the pain taken from me, however it did mean that I had strength, I felt as though my angels and my sweet baby were right there helping me through it all. I didn’t think about the end, I just worked on staying present and getting through one moment at a time. In the really really hard labor of it all as the baby’s head was peaking and I was guiding him out I remember just wanting to push and be done, but the reminder from my midwife came to be in control, as I followed that instruction I remember saying “I am in control, it’s ok, I can do this”. I literally held that baby in and slowly pushed, just a little at a time I pushed, I remember also telling myself that I didn’t want to push too hard because I didn’t want to tear and have other negative repercussions, I stayed focused in those moments and felt this sense of control and power, I felt so proud of myself for how Intentional and focused I was. This pregnancy was full of ups and downs and so many changes mentally and emotionally as well as circumstances changing which changed my plan of a hospital birth to a home birth. I believe everything worked out exactly as it was meant to and that I am where I am meant to be now. I am recovering so much easier and smoother this time around, I feel as though my body responded kindly to me, I feel great, I am so grateful for the self coaching I have done and for all that I have learned so that I could have this experience be so positive and beautiful. I always have a choice in how I think and respond even if I can’t control my circumstance. I love the feeling of gratitude I have been able to feel and in striving to remember gratitude in all things (which can definitely be challenging in those painful or hard moments) I've learned how amazing it is that when the mind changes there becomes this sense of empowerment that sets in. Now as my baby is 2 weeks old and I am taking advantage of this time to bond and relax I am continually humbled at Gods grace, he has allowed me to be a mother and I feel so blessed. I still get to pray, study my scriptures in the morning, and write in my gratitude journal which has helped inspire me to prioritize and acknowledge that no matter how life changes I still get to follow a routine that honors my spirit and my mind. However I am struggling with the physical aspect of it all. I am used to being able to work out and have more discipline with my diet and it’s really been challenging. Every time the negative defeating thoughts creep in I find myself working even harder to be ok with it all, I do my self coaching and energy work to get through it, but it’s still really hard to be in control of my mind and intentionally choose thoughts that honor and support what I want to feel and experience. I know that I can do hard things and that I don’t have to rely on my own strength, which helps me to keep going. I get to be grateful for every thought and experience whether it seems helpful or not and if I at least acknowledge them (my thoughts/feelings) or stay aware of them then I know I am not giving them all my power which helps me feel safe, if I feel safe then I am not reverting to fight or flight, instead I can feel the discomfort of my thoughts and emotions stay in the moment with them and then choose what I want to experience instead. I would rather feel the discomfort so I don’t give in to other habits I don’t want to give in to such as overeating or eating junk unconsciously or over watching shows that keep my attention away for the discomfort. It takes a lot of work though. Whenever we choose to do something unhealthy in our life so we don’t have to feel the emotion and discomfort of it we give our power away and sometimes it can lead to unwanted addictions/ unhealthy habits and behaviors. What if instead of giving in to unwanted habits we choose to be aware of the thoughts generating our unwanted feelings and show love and compassion to ourselves? What would it look like for you if you just took a deep breath and listened to yourself instead of immediately giving in to whatever it is you go to when discomfort sets in (for me it’s usually a snack even though at times it’s a healthy snack) it’s still a way that I try to not feel the discomfort. I know we can all find strength and inspiration to be in control of our own lives, but in those moments where it’s too much to handle on your own I’m here as your coach ready to support you. Contact me when you’re ready for lasting results! #insightsfromemily #lifecoach #mommycoach #pregnancycoach #beincontrolofyourownlife #inspiration #empoweredcoaching